Faith and Choice: A Dialogue With the Divine
There comes a moment in life when the question is no longer what you believe, but how you live inside what you believe.
I have sat quietly with this tension: faith and choice, destiny and free will. If faith is real, is everything already decided? And if choice is real, is everything entirely in my hands?
For a long time, those questions felt like opposites pulling me apart.
But they are not opposites. They are partners.
Faith is not the erasure of choice. And choice is not the absence of faith. They exist together, not as a contradiction, but as a relationship.
Faith, I have come to understand, is the choice made by the Creator first. The Creator chooses to believe in us. To place possibility into our hands. To trust us with breath, with consciousness, with the capacity to love, to destroy, and to rebuild again.
That is faith.
Choice, then, is our response.
I learned this not through certainty, but through love.
Someone I love has been walking through a season of deep refinement. A time shaped by difficult decisions and life altering choices. His life and mine are very different. Our paths do not align in any simple or practical way. And yet, they coincide. Not in outcome, but in meaning.
There were moments when I wanted clarity. When I wanted reassurance. When I wanted love to resolve into togetherness, into something tangible and certain. But life asked something else of me. It asked me to allow freedom. His. Mine.
Loving him did not mean holding on. It meant trusting what was unfolding in his life, even when I could not walk beside him through it. It meant honoring my own becoming as well. Love became less about possession and more about reverence.
We could not be together. And yet, the connection did not disappear. It changed form. It became a quiet dialogue with God.
In that space, I understood something essential. Faith was not asking me to secure the outcome. Faith was asking me to choose love without guarantees. To bless the path, even if it did not include me. To trust that destiny is not always about union, but about alignment with truth.
I chose that.
And in choosing love as freedom, I felt both the ache of separation and the peace of integrity. I was not abandoned. I was not mistaken. I was held.
That is how I came to understand this.
If everything were predetermined, love would lose its meaning. Obedience without freedom is not devotion. It is compliance. And if everything were only choice, with no guiding presence beneath us, life would become unbearable. The weight of meaning would crush us. We would never rest.
So both must exist.
Faith is the hand of the Creator extended toward you.
Choice is your hand deciding whether to reach back.
Destiny is not a rigid script written in stone. It is a landscape. A terrain already shaped with valleys and horizons and paths that curve out of sight. Choice determines how you walk through it. Where you pause. What you turn away from. What you sanctify simply by staying present.
Faith does not mean the outcome is fixed. Faith means you are held, even when the outcome is unknown.
Choice does not mean you are alone. Choice means you are participating.
This is where the misunderstanding lives. Many believe faith requires surrendering agency. But true faith demands agency. Without choice, faith cannot be expressed. Without faith, choice becomes frantic, fearful, and unmoored.
Choice is not rebellion against God.
Choice is conversation with God.
Every decision is a sentence spoken back into the universe. Every intention is a prayer, whether you name it that way or not. Fear speaks one language. Love speaks another. Integrity speaks slowly and clearly. Avoidance speaks in silence.
The life you live becomes the language you use in this dialogue.
Your choices do not override divine will. They reveal how willing you are to engage with it. Faith sets the horizon. Choice determines the steps. Faith says meaning exists. Choice asks whether you will align with it or resist it.
This is the sacred tension. Held and free. Guided and responsible. Written and alive.
You are not here to control life.
You are here to converse with it.
And the words you choose to speak through action, through courage, through restraint, through love, those words shape the life you will have.
Faith does not remove responsibility. It makes responsibility holy.
Choice does not remove God. It is where you meet God.
Again and again. In every small yes. In every brave no. In every moment you decide how to answer the hand that is already reaching for you.
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The Intelligence of Breath: Reflection on Sudarshan Chakra Kriya
Breath is one of the most subtle yet powerful tools for connecting with ourselves. Through conscious breathing, we can access deeper awareness, release tension, and restore balance in body, mind, and spirit. In this reflection, I share a personal experience with Sudarshan Chakra Kriya, a transformative breathwork practice I have engaged with for several years. This is a moment from my practice and a glimpse into what unfolds internally as the breath moves through the body, mind, and energy.
Sudarshan Chakra Kriya is a pranayama practice that was taught to me by Yogi Bhajan during my Kundalini Yoga Teacher Trainings. Rooted in the tradition of Kundalini Yoga, it is designed to cleanse the energy channels, balance the nervous system, and harmonize the physical, mental, and energetic aspects of being.
Breathwork has always felt like a bridge between the seen and the unseen, between what I can guide and what I must surrender to. After years of working with Sudarshan Chakra Kriya, pausing and returning to it, I notice that the practice continues to evolve. Each session feels both familiar and new. Each inhale and exhale carries its own story, and even moments of resistance or heaviness reveal something essential about the inner landscape.
I was seated, inhaling long and deep through my left nostril while keeping the right nostril closed. I engaged Mula Bandha, the root lock at the base of the spine, and began pumping my belly rhythmically, three pumps to one beat. The motion felt like a pulse, steady and alive, like the heartbeat of the earth moving within me. With each pump, awareness moved downward and inward, touching something fundamental, almost like uncovering a hidden current.
As I observed this pulse deepening, I became aware of its effects on both body and energy. Physically, this rhythmic engagement stimulates the diaphragm and tones the abdominal region, supporting circulation and oxygenation in the lower body. Energetically, it awakens the root and pelvic centers, lifting prana upward and beginning to clear the inner channels of vitality.
A few minutes in, the inhale began to feel heavy, almost dense, as if the air had to work to find its way in. At first, I felt impatient, noticing subtle resistance in the chest and belly. But staying with it, pumping through the weight, holding the breath, and exhaling through the right nostril revealed something profound. The heaviness itself was teaching me patience, presence, and surrender. The sensation mirrored a kind of inner purification, a clearing of stagnation that the mind might otherwise overlook. Energetically, layers of tension moved, making space for more refined awareness to flow. Mentally, I noticed old thoughts loosening and a subtle softening of habitual judgment and self-criticism.
Then, at some point, the breath changed. It became lighter and smoother. The inhale flowed more freely, almost entirely through the left side. The left nostril felt opened in a new way, shaped into a subtle channel that seemed to reach through the skull and illuminate the left side of my face from within. This was not a surface sensation but an inner movement of breath and awareness.
In yogic language, this could be described as the awakening of Ida Nadi, the cooling lunar current that governs intuition, calm, and inward reflection. Physiologically, left-sided breathing activates the parasympathetic nervous system, which supports rest, safety, and integration. It was as if the breath itself was guiding awareness, like a gentle river carving its path through a landscape, revealing hidden contours and quiet spaces I might otherwise overlook.
By the end of the session, it felt as though I was breathing from within the left side of my body, centered, quiet, and spacious. A distinct clarity and softness lingered beyond the practice, a feeling of inner luminosity and ease. I noticed how these shifts carried into daily life. Small moments of stress felt lighter, interactions felt more grounded, and even ordinary breath became a gentle guide back to presence.
Each time I return to this kriya, I am reminded that every breath has its own intelligence. When we listen closely enough, the body begins to teach us what it needs to release, what it is ready to open, and how it wishes to balance itself. Even when the breath feels heavy or the process uncertain, presence itself becomes the teacher.
Through long practice, I have come to understand that every session unfolds across multiple layers. The muscular and respiratory systems shape the physical rhythm of breath. The nervous system mediates our state of being. The energetic body reflects and directs consciousness. Sudarshan Chakra Kriya engages all of these layers simultaneously, creating a bridge between breath and awareness, matter and energy.
Invitation to Practice
Even a few minutes of focused breathing can reveal subtle shifts and insights. You might try this now. Sit comfortably and inhale gently through your left nostril while keeping the right nostril closed. Lightly engage the base of your spine and notice the movement of your belly with each breath. Exhale fully through the right nostril. Observe the sensations, the rhythm, and the quiet awareness behind each inhale and exhale. Allow yourself to simply be with the breath and notice what arises.
Personal Note
I have practiced Sudarshan Chakra Kriya for several years, including intensive periods that brought me into extended meditative states. Every practitioner’s experience is unique. The sensations, shifts, and insights I describe here are what unfolded for me. My hope is that sharing this reflection supports others in their own breathwork journey, offering a window into the depth and quiet transformation that arise when we fully engage with the intelligence of our own breath.
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